Random thoughts | School

I feel like that is me every single day during school.

 Hello  

So currently at school it is roughly the second term out of the four terms for this year and this term is also ending soon.  This year has gone by so fast. I'm growing old 

WHY MUST I BE GETTING OLD. Can't I just stay the same age  I have been complaining about this ever since I was little. However one thing that I know wouldn't change would be my height. I have been short my whole life. I always see being shooting up and growing taller and taller. I only ever joke about myself thinking that I am tall. It is probably driving everyone crazy  Oh well short people can be cute right? Well I hope to be haha ( I lie, when can I become cute?) 

Recently I have been sucked into social media. I have become more and more happy when I talk to people. I find it strange. It must have been because I have been antisocial for more than 10 years of my life. My life is so sad  I now find that I procrastinate more easily when talking to people even though it can be nothing important. I just like havig long chats now 


Something I just realised now is that I dont think I have actually called or talked through a phone line to a friend ever since I was Year 8. It makes me realise how much I miss people talking through the phone to me.  I guess social media has taken its place now. 

I recently went through an old conversation with a friend of mine and found that I was very strange back then.  I find how funny it was when I was younger and probably in a few years time when I look back past my blog I would laugh at the stuff I wrote. I'll probably be embarassed. 

The Fault in Our Stars movie has came out recently and I have been meaning to go. I hope to be able to watch it soon.  Hopefully I would be able to go to before they take it off the cinemas  I would just remember to not cry that much. However I actually didnt cry when I read the book however I did find it sad (but again who didnt )

I also had my braces off after roughly a year and half.  I do miss them and wonder how I ever dealt with them. My mouth feels so much different with them. I found that my braces experience was actually alright. It wasn't that painful or annoying. But at time I didnt have my braces as long as other people (which I am grateful for.)  
I was very lucky as I got them taken just before ball. When I first gotten them off I was really happy and smiled with me teeth but at ball I realised I looked really strange and awkward in photos. I should practice my smiling 



Yesterday there was an unexpected error on Facebook which I found funny. As when Facebook was off, the people I was talking with all moved to skype and we started talking again. I feel like I wasnt using skype to its full potential.  

Another aspect I have been into lately is Nightcore music. It was like when I was really into Kpop phase last year. ( I still listen to it every now and again)  I'm sure I would get it over soon and listen to it less. (hopefully) I find that nightcore music is always happy like as the voices are higher pitch.  

I dont know if I have mentioned this before but people tell me that I actually have a "high" voice but I dont think I do. Or maybe it is because I am use to it  Hopefully people would one day stop mocking it. It can be fun. I think my voice can drive people insane.  Basically I'm an asian who is short and has an annoying high voice. Probably explains why I have a hard time finding friends 

Is it just me or I sometimes have it a hard time to find a present for a friend?  I find it fun when shopping with others and finding a gift but when you are lost its not that fun.  I also realise that when students go into a shop the shop keepers tend to stalk you with their eyes. It's kinda scary. It makes me feel like I did something bad  I am totally an innocent person (I hope) because I never seem to get any jokes. And it is too awkward for me to ask. Plus I feel dumb asking too.  

I have been randomoly blogging this whole post and it has been going no where. I am not organised. I should be too  Exams are soon. 
Thanks for reading and hopefully I didnt bore you to death with my random thoughts. 

"i want to be kind. i want to have a beautiful heart."

Pre - Ball Thoughts | School

Hello everyone 

In New Zealand it was and still is ball season or some as some of you might know it as prom season. When I first started high school I always wanted to go to ball. I thought it would be fun and how pretty everyone looked.   

Once I became old enough this year I was really excited to go to ball. Date or no date. It would be great to go either way. It was a way just to get away from school. 

It was a day to get all nicely dresses and pretty.   Expect I wasnt keen for a dress and wasnt wanting to wear a suit either. Can  you imagine me in a suit? looking more awkward and all. I kinda went for a dress which wasnt long as I am very clumsy. Knowing myself well, I'll probably trip up. 

 

One problem I found was that alot of girls started excerising when ball was becoming closer. They put and effort to look nice while I didnt bother much. Am I getting more lazy? 

When the tickets were on sale I was kinda slowly hesitating. I didnt really know if I wanted to go. I started to overthink more and more. I couldnt leave my date (thankfully I had one  ) behing could I? Am I that mean to ditch him? I probably wasnt.  

The time he asked me I was overload with joy especially after treating me lunch ( I love food).  Who could say no to food?

Thanks for asking me  

For me a date at ball made it more fun and enjoyable 
It actually got to mean that I had someone to hang out with and wouldnt always be alone. And if you know me I hate being alone.  After Ball I wish there were more nights like it. It was really memorable for me and hopefully everyone that went. 

That is all for now. My next post would all be about ball. 

I hope you have a good night or day! 

Hope to blog soon. 

Past Weeks | School

Hello everyone~ 
My blog has basically been dead lately.  Sorry about that. I doubt anyone is reading this but I guess I'll write for my own comfort. *cries* Why am I so loner.  I have been so sick lately  I blame it on the weather like always. It the winter season I guess. 
Before I was sick everyone else around me was sick and I felt so superior as I wasnt a weakling haha. 
I wish it was summer already where I can drink cold drinks without worrying 



I guess foods need to do it for now  I have taken a large intake of unhealthy foods lately ( more than usual). This causes me to be lazy too. My relationship with food is a hate/love situation. Why cant I just stop gaining weight 

Considering how the term is going I think it is going fine.  I am balancing everything well ever since after week 6. 
I even been leaving the house more  or maybe because my parents kick me out of the house. They love me too much 

During school I have this habit of mine which makes me seem more childish than I already am   
Our school allocates school diaries for students to buy. The diaries are really decent unless you see mine. Mine is really a mess  It has doodles everywhere  Its like a kid's diary. It has drawings everywhere. EVERY SINGLE PAGE SO FAR. as my brother would describe it, its a "girl's diary."  I really dont know if thats a good or bad thing. I guess it is cause I'm a girl ?  

Well time to take my leave and enjoy dinner and do homework (my repeated process every single day) I cant wait for the holidays. I dream for those days to come