soloing at a concert

 Its been 6 days since my last check in and I have had more thought about my soloing manifestation journey. I am feeling comfortable being alone more and more which is reassuring feeling. At the back of my mind I had a constant guilt, pressure and fear of being alone and feeling alone. I'm slowly learning it isn't fearful as it looks. With social media, it has made it easier for people to feel connected but, we should experience the loneliness. 

I have created a checklist of things I want to do solo before the end of the year. It might seem simple but comfortable. I can happily say that I have achieved one of them already!

11.11 Manifestation

 

I have been having a few days this past month. I would say this year has been once of the worst year. I feel that I just ignore these feelings until I forget about them. Today I learnt I learn that 11/11 is a meaningful day. Its singles' day, Pocky day and manifestation day. I am really hoping to write down what I want and say it out to the world or void. 

1. Feeling comfortable being alone 

2.Taking action and doing things that I want to 

3. Finding a passion and sticking to it

4. Building up and down habits 

5. Believing in faith 

I dont really want to elaborate on much but I know what I am feeling deep inside. 

It's not long till Christmas now... The year really sneaks faster and faster as you grow up. 

Currently listening to: https://youtu.be/f9cViIsTarw?si=ONsuSyMzhiygxU3B 

Start of August 2024

Checking in 6 months later. Time has flown by... I feel a big difference from the headspace I was in last year compared to this time last year. New job, travelling, friends and interests. I just came back from Melbourne and had a great time. There was so much food to eat and explore despite only staying within the CBD. It makes me feel what a true developed city feels like. Somewhere to explore on weekends with its bustling culture. Every Matcha I tried was so so good. I can not wait to go back again. 

2024 Checking in

I cant believe that I started this blog over 10 years ago. Despite my inconsistency, this blog still is online and lives on. So much has changed the past few years. I have travelled, graduated high school and university, started new hobbies, switched several jobs and career paths. One thing that hasn't changed is the fact I love recording about my life though in recent years it has been on a physical book. I started a diary, scrapbook, one line a day and grateful journal. I guess if you really want to know about my life; you will have to collect all the pieces and puzzle it together. I have been doing instagram dumps which show the highlights of my months. It is quite nice looking back on it and its easy to look back on. 

What a throwback

 

wow......

What a throwback. I just had a thought about this blog.. Its still here - all the memories sparkling as I read them. I always had a thing for the past. You could say that I am a nostalgic person. It the year 2021. It has been 3 years since my 'last' post. But could you really say it was my last post? I feel like it was more of a check up post. 

It feels like blogs are in the past. Now, everyone is on tiktok, instagram, snapchat and whatever new social media that is up and rising. Yet, I feel that blogs hold a special place in my heart. Even when I am not blogging - I have been trying to keep a journal and diary. It is a way to keep myself checked and occupied when I am alone. I am horrible at being alone - I love to be with others whether its just sitting next to them or chatting on for hours.

Over the years, I realise that I love capturing memories either in photos, physically or simply by writing. I love reliving the past and feel that I never live in the future. I am trying my best to improve on this.  

August | 2018

Hi Hi~

I just decided to login and read some of my posts! I can not believe that I started this blog so long ago~ Where has the time gone? It is so weird because you remember stuff as if it was yesterday. This year is my third year and university and will be hopefully graduating soon! It is currently the break in semester 2. Even though we are meant to take a break two f my courses require me to come into the university to do lab work. It kind of sucks because I don't really get a 'real' break. 

HIGHLIGHTS |2017

Hi~ 

I thought I'll do some highlights of 2017 since I didn't blog at all and thought it'll be a great read for my future self to remember 2017. 

((My memory of 2017 is kinda already blank lol )) 

END OF YEAR | 2017

Hi All~

Fast forward another year. I cant believe it a whole year with no blogging despite saying I will. But to be honest I think I can believe. University has been crazy than ever. I never thought studying will get this difficult especially juggling all responsibilities.

I just read my previous post and ANOTHER but the same happened again. I replace my phone because I dropped it once again when i was working. Living nightmare. A black unlucky spirit cat is probably following me. 

  

End of the Year | 2016

wow. what a year it has been. A tough long yet fast year. Alot of things have happened throughout the year that I can not think of every detail of. The major change of this year was probably attending University.

Attending university has changed me alot with the obvious of changing my daily routine. Having 8 am CHEM 110 classes when you live up to a 2 hour bus ride away requires you to get up early in the morning and catch the bus at 6:20 am or even 6am. I like to think of myself as a morning person but i couldn't convince myself to enjoy it. Luckily it only lasted one semester.

New Zealand's Weather

Hello ~ 

For the past week in New Zealand it has been constantly sunny and bright. The day just became very hot which did not motivate me at all. 

NEW YEAR AND CHRISTMAS~

Hi Everyone! 

The Christmas/New year holiday has officially passed ~

How was your holiday? Is everyone back to there usual routine? Does the New Year make you feel any different? For me, the New Year is a reminder that it is a time for change. This year so far has been a transition in my academic life from a high school student going off to University.

Review Questions for 2015

Hi everyone as it is a close to a year I decided to create a little review/self evaluation of this year for myself!

I hope to read and do something similar in the future! 

If you are interested you can read on!

End of 2015 ALREADY ?!

Hi to my non existent readers that i kinda abandoned for a year!

Its me Elaine! Here are so quick facts about me:

 Currently still  an Asian Girl 

 Still living in New Zealand

 Still loves anime 

 Still sits at home and snacks too much for her own good

Happy 2015

Wow its been over two months since I have blogged on here! It is way passed exams and holidays!

Chaotic Days | Summary of the past month

Hey! It has been so long.

Hope you haven't forgotten about me!

A post is long over due.I am currently sitting my exams! I only have two more left ;; (Maths tomorrow and History next week) I cant wait for everything to be done and I can finally rest and muck about with no stress! Don't you love the feeling of no pressure or restrictions? Here is a quick post on my life recently!

Last week | Term 3

HII~

School has ended but I have plans for the holidays apart from a movie or two with some friends. I want a restful break and hopefully get some studying done. I need to lift those grades up. Recently my week has been going great and I received a few gifts ^^ Thank you Wilson ^^

I really like them ^^

+teemo hat and sweets :3

I think it was a bit overwell for my birthday and gave him a keychain and surprised him with a shirt in return ^^

On Wednesday, I was hanging out with my friend Olia and she was handing out CVs at the local Mall for a job. She made me think that I should also be consider a job soon too. I hopefully will have one soon!

I recently went to the supermarket and only discovered about a certain that I hope to try soon~ 

The gradient as the background is so pretty :3 Nothing much has happened apart from school! I hope to blog more since it is holidays for now ^^ and balance it with studying! That is all for now! My post has been really empty haha

Thank you for reading!

 Bye~

Grave of the FireFlies | Movie

Helloo everyone~

My term 3 has no concluded and the holidays are now starting ^.^

My grades overall were alright but I could have done better. I really need to study~ But first I need to rest and eat :3

As promised I'll write about the Grave of the FireFlies and I'll admit it was more touching than I expected. 

After School Exams 2014

Hello~

So my exams are finally finished! YAYYY~ I was so relieved once it was done with cause I was starting to lack alot of sleep due to procrastination.My exams were alright in general I think... Well my results are coming out tomorrow and hope I did alright because one of my friends got an email inquiring his "effort" towards his exams. I hope my teachers don't growl me if I didnt meet their expectations.

中秋節快樂 ♥

 Happy Mid-Autumn Festival (✿◠‿◠)  

I cant believe its that time of the year again! I remember writing this post last year! I feel terribly old. And speaking of this, it is going to be my birthday soon and I would feel even more old!

Time goes so fast! I have exams coming up too! Studying has been so hard recently...

August Update

Hello everyone! 

It is nearly September! Wow 4 more months until it would be 2015. Time has gone by really fast. I haven't blogged in a while but to be honest nothing much has happened! Exams are coming up and I'm lacking with all the "studying" I have done. Why must I procrastinate. Why must I do this to myself? I am just making myself more and more stressed. I feel lazy haha.

I haven't done much this this month and there really isn't enough to write about. I did go and study with some of my friends and they ended up bringing up lollies and we just munched on them. Thank you: Wilson,Prince,Andrew and Brian for studying with me and making me look less like a loner that I am already am. I also went over to a Chung's house for the first time. Prince,Andrew and I got lost at first as we didnt know the exact address of this house. His pets were the cutest however his dog was sure energetic. 

Meow Meow. His cat was more friendlier.

This dog was one of the most energetic that I have ever seen. He was so small and cute. I regret running away and being scared of it. It did try to bite me so I did have an excuse to run...
However Chung's pet seem to have grown attached to Prince or maybe it was because he was good with animals. I was mean and kept holding a piece of grass in front of his dog. I have no idea what I was expecting. 
I'm so weird haha

I kinda want pets when I grow up. Maybe a small one with low maintance? 

Anyway I should get back to studying! Lets get motivated :)